Fridays with Phil

Life, family and unshakeable faith

8 Keys to Unlock the Door to your Destiny


Do you ever feel confused about which doors, which opportunities, which path, or which way to go?  Do you think some doors should be pushed open and some should be left closed? Do you understand what doors are right for you?

I got to thinking about doors, the literal, not the figurative type, because very soon the door to our home will be modified so I can get my wheelchair in and out of the house.  I was amazed at how many different types of doors there are.  There are sliding doors,  doors inside other doors, expanding doors, automatic doors, swinging doors, revolving doors.

And it’s the same with life, it is filled with so many choices.  It is filled with doors we need to walk through and some we need to leave closed.

Even the Apostle Paul in the Bible (e.g. 2 Corinthians 2:12) used the metaphor of a door to speak about opportunities, obligations and opposition that were in front of him and I want to do the same today.

So how do you know which door to walk through and which to not?

Well, my wife collects old keys. The keys are so unique and tailor-made for the doors they were made to open.  I want to encourage you, that with the right keys, we can tackle even the most daunting, even the heaviest, even the oldest or newest of doors.  But, without the right keys, we can be left frustrated and hopeless.

In life, I think it’s the same.  There are certain keys to use before you walk through any given door.  These are a few filters if you like, that you can use to test that this is indeed the right door for you.

I hope this blog can help remove some of the frustrations associated when we are presented with doors of choice and opportunity.

8 Keys to Unlock the Door to your Destiny: 

Key 1.  Does the door align with your natural talents and giftings?

You can live in a way where you are in tune with who you are, even more than what you do.  It’s important not to make any decision based on a fantasy of ourselves but on who we really are.

You see, I’m a fan of F1 car racing. When I watch it, I fantasise about being able to drive one of those cars.  That’s what fans do deep down, they FANtasise.  But I’m not going to give up my current life to do something I fantasise about if it has nothing to do with my talents and gifts.  Knowing which door is right for you starts with knowing who you are and what you are good at.

Key 2.  Does the door align with personal and family values and priorities?

Every decision we make has consequences for us and for those around us.  If we can step back and ask ourselves what we truly value as a family, then it helps focus our priorities.  If an open door causes you to compromise your family priorities, then don’t walk through it.  If an open door causes you to compromise your faith, your beliefs or yours standards, keep it firmly closed.

Key 3.  Does the door align with your development and growth challenges?

It’s wrong to not walk through a door just because you’re afraid of what may or may not be on the other side.  That is living in fear.  Life, I believe, is lived more fully at the place of courage and faith.  Sometimes we have to take a risk to be able to enjoy all that the door has on the other side of it.

Key 4.  Does the door align with affirmations of those closest to you?

Whenever I make a move toward an unfamiliar door, I like to ask those who know me best what they think.  Are your friends and family supportive?  You know it’s your door when they are saying things like “this is you” or “you can do this” or “you were born for this.”  Don’t ignore positive affirmations from those closest to you.

Key 5.  Does the door align with future hopes and dreams?

The doors you walk through lead you to your future.  That’s the truth.  When your life is filled with hope for a better future, then you make decisions that will help achieve those dreams.  Walk through doors that are a step towards your goals.  You can see why having goals, hopes and dreams are powerful in forming your life today.

Key 6.  Does the door align with your understanding of biblical truth?

As a Christian, I would have to ask myself, does this opportunity align with my commitment to live according to the words of Jesus?  Does it allow me to love more, help more? Does it bring life? Is it’s motivation others centred? Will the outcome be peace and wholeness?  That forms the basis of my life.

Key 7.  Does the door align with a sense of destiny?

Does the door lead to what I believe to be my reason and purpose for being?  Do I sense this is where I belong?  Do I bring with me what is unique to and from others?

For those of you that know my recent journey with MND, you know that I have been presented with a door that takes me into living rooms, hospitals and bedrooms of the suffering.  It’s not a door for everyone, but for me at this time and for this season, it’s my door and I need to use it or I could easily fail to live to the full potential of my destiny.

It can be tempting to look around you and see what doors others are walking through and feel like you have to walk through that same door.  But you see, they have a different door presenting.

Key 8.  Does the door align with a sense of obligation?

Does the door carry a sense of “I need to do this”?  There are so many external needs that cry out for our attention and one person cannot meet every need there is.  We can’t do everything, but we must do something.  What is it that YOU NEED TO DO?

I hope the above keys can help you determine which doors are for you to open and walk through and which ones are to walk past.

Bless you,

Not alone


In the aftermath of the Big Freeze in Melbourne and Newcastle, I can’t help but be amazed at the support of the Australian public and our own local community rallying behind the fight for a cure for Motor Neurone Disease.

I’ve had a number of requests for a copy of the speech I gave at Newcastle’s Big Freeze Ball, so I thought I would publish it for you as this month’s Fridays with Phil.  My heart is that no matter how alone you feel at times, you would know you are never alone.

Hi everyone, my name is Phil Camden.

And I am not alone.

I am honoured to have been asked to speak for this wonderful occasion.  Not only because it is a wonderful occasion but because I am in a room of people who are fighting with me.

I am not alone.

There was a day, I was very alone.

It was the day I found out I had Motor Neurone Disease.

I was a fit and seemingly healthy 54 year old guy. Happily married, two grown girls, enjoying all Newcastle had to offer.  Some would call it the prime of life.

I noticed my leg muscles cramping when I would do even the most standard run.

My physio saw the cramps first hand and referred me to see a GP.  The GP referred me to a Neurologist.  The Neurologist did some tests.

He was the one who delivered the fateful news that I was facing a terminal disease that had no known cause nor a cure.

I had Motor Neurone Disease.

I drove home that day, alone.

It wasn’t a loneliness that comes from a lack of company.

I was alone in this disease. 

I had never heard of it.

I didn’t know anyone else who had it.

I couldn’t really explain what it felt like to be told I had maybe months, possibly a year or two to live.

It didn’t seem fair – why me? Why now?

I was alone with my diagnosis.

I sat in my car with the doctor’s letter on my front seat.  I sat at home staring at disbelief at what google was telling me. I sat with my wife and my daughters weeping, at times unable to stand from the grief that was all consuming.

I was alone in my death sentence.

But that was then.  And this is now.

What a difference the team at Fight MND and you, each of you here, have made.

I don’t just want to thank you for your money, but I do thank you.

I don’t just want to thank you for your tireless effort, but I do thank you.

I don’t just want to thank you for courage, but I do thank you.

I don’t just want to thank you for your being here, but I do thank you.

I thank each of you.

For those who have sacrificed, campaigned, and supported to make this inaugural Big Freeze a success!

You may not realise what you have done just by being here tonight.

I want to tell you…

From the bottom of my heart, and on behalf of all those who have been touched by this disease, we now know: we are not alone!

You see, there is an army rising up , growing everyday, and you are part of that army.

It’s an army that is not satisfied with no hope.

It’s an army that is not satisfied with no treatments and no cure.

It’s an army whose actions are louder than their words.

It’s an army who knows that we are stronger together.

The reason why we have got behind Neale Daniher, his daughter Bec and Fight MND – is because we are stronger together – and the legacy of what we have seen today will live on beyond my lifetime, and beyond yours.

Together we can achieve more, together our money goes further, together we bring greater awareness, and together we will bring a fatal blow to the beast that is MND!

To take down this beast will mean all of us doing our part.  You may think your part is only small, but the sum of all of those parts creates a great impact.

Friends, today is not about me or Neale Daniher or any one person.  This is about all of us together.

I realise tonight, that many are here because you have suffered the loss of a loved one with this disease.

We want you to know their death has not been forgotten and has not been in vain.

We are building tonight on their memory and their legacy.

I hope as you look around this room tonight, and as you saw the support these past weeks, you would know you are not alone:

in the memory of your loved one;

in honouring their life;

in what was the greatest fight of their life;

Tim, Jim, Leah, Janine and Janine, you are not alone.

To all those who have lost loved ones to this insidious disease, you are not alone.

When we do find a cure, we will owe it to all those who have gone before us!

And I say “when” we do find a cure, because I wholeheartedly believe, there is a cure, we just haven’t found it yet.

As very good friends so aptly put it, “when we do find a cure, we won’t be able to put a price on it.”

It may not happen in the next year or two and many may die before it does…

But what we do know is in Australia 2-3 people died today, 2-3 will die tomorrow, 2 or 3 died yesterday – and it won’t change without action.

This disease needs to be taken down!

You see, I still have a death sentence hanging over my head, I don’t want to sugar coat that.

I can barely walk.  Others I know can barely talk.  They can barely breathe.   This disease is a beast.

I have buried men who only months before were strong and healthy.

I meet them at our MND support group.

I meet their partners, I meet their kids.

I watch as they can no longer move their legs, their arms, their tongue to speak or their jaw to eat.

I see firsthand as they become prisoners in their body, all the while fully aware of what is happening to them.

Being a minister, they have asked me, and it has been my honour, to eventually bury them.

But it has to stop!

I’ve buried too many people who have died to this disease.

I’ve sat with too many grieving families losing their loved ones far too young.

Just last month, I met a child with MND.

It makes me so angry.

The people I have met through this disease can only be described as wonderful, courageous, salt of the earth, the real deal. Did I mention courageous?

Their families are astounding in their relentless support, care and resilience in caring for loved ones who can no longer care for themselves.

When I have looked into the eyes of families who with tears running down their cheeks, mourn the loss of their husband, father, sister, mother, it spurs me on!

I don’t want to just be angry or sad or defeated and the beast wins.

I want to use every breath I have, by every means I can to deal a fatal blow to this disease.

I want to be an ambassador that there is always hope. Always.

To the disease I despise, your greatest days are behind you and an army of us are coming at you with all we can muster.


So that, one day, whether in our lifetime or not, a doctor, can sit across from a patient, like I did that fateful day, and hear the horrible news that they have Motor Neurone Disease but then be told:


Every cent given says, “you are not alone.”

Every message of encouragement says, “you are not alone.”

Every time you help share awareness of this disease, it says, “you are not alone.”

I am not alone. And neither are you.

Straight talk: wheelchairs etc.

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No man is an island.  In one form or another, we all need help.  Isolation, as tempting as it can be, will not achieve the purpose for which you have been created.

Your life: the good, the bad, the ugly, can help someone else in their journey.

I wonder what your journey could teach me?  I hope I will always stay open to that.

I wanted to write today’s blog to help you.  It’s also written to help me and people like me.

You see, when I was first diagnosed with Motor Neurone Disease (MND) or ALS, I was not familiar with disability.  I knew of it, I had touched it, but I hadn’t been immersed in it.

Four years on, I wouldn’t say I am an expert but I would say there are things I know now, I didn’t know then.

Those in my world would know I have started using a powered wheelchair (PWC) more often than not.

My leg muscles have progressively weakened over the past four years, but at a slow rate for which I am thankful.  My neurologist reminds me rather bluntly, “you should be dead.”   Well, I am not dead and I am very happy about that.

I have maintained by upper body strength, but in this part of my journey, it is difficult to walk, to balance, and there is a high risk of falling.  One friend in Queensland with MND at a similar stage as me, expected to live at least another year and a half, fell, hit his head and tragically passed away.

That I have started using a wheelchair may come as a surprise to many.  Especially those who haven’t seen me for a while and when they do I look physically ok.  I’ve had someone say, “You don’t even look like you need a wheelchair!”

There is no way I would be using one if I didn’t need it.

If for no other reason than I love fast cars and these things don’t fit inside those.  I rely on my family to help load and unload me and my chair.  That aside, it’s the right thing to do.

Using my wheelchair is not giving up.  It is actually the opposite.  I use it to fight on, to stay connected, to have independence and to live life to the full.

Do I wish I could walk like everyone else? Yes.

Do I wish I did not have to use a wheelchair? Absolutely.

Am I giving up? No. I am trying to stay alive!

Can I walk? Yes, for short distances.

Should I walk? No, not often.

I can walk short distances but I am safer in public to use my wheelchair.  Muscle fatigue can cause me to be off-balance and at risk of falling.

My wheelchair has thousands of dollars worth of support and cushioning to support my core and backside so I’m more energy efficient and comfortable in the chair when out and about.  By using the chair, I’m able to conserve energy for the more private necessary walking, personal care and even driving every now and then.

Recently I was travelling by plane with my wife Lenore.  While waiting for the gate to open, a flight attendant came towards us.  She glanced at me in my chair and then proceeded to ask Lenore, “Will he need assistance to get on the plane?”

Their conversation about me went on while I was sitting there.

My wife is now an expert at this situation, and is helping direct the person speaking back to me when I am the topic of conversation.

Just because a person is in a wheelchair doesn’t mean they don’t exist, cannot comprehend, speak for themselves or make wise choices.

On the other hand, I was in a store, Universal Store in Charlestown, and the young shop assistant walked confidently up to me and asked, if she could help move anything around to make it easier for me, to please let her know.  I was so impressed.  She got it.

In brief, some of the things I found helpful in navigating this new part of the journey and hopefully has made me more aware of others in chairs too:

  1. Speak directly to the person.
  2. If you are in a moving crowd, be aware the person will need to stop the chair before they can shake your hand.
  3. Treat the chair as an extension of the person. Touch it as you would someone you were speaking to, but don’t lean on it, hang things on it or take over the controls without checking first.
  4. Focus on the person, not the disability.
  5. Always ask if the person would like assistance and accept their answer.
  6. Express yourself naturally.  It’s ok to say “let’s go for a walk” or “let’s walk to the café” even if the person can’t “walk” – just be yourself!
  7. Keep your feet safe and clear.  Chairs are heavy and the tyres are solid. The person driving it can’t see behind them and doesn’t want to hurt you.
  8. View the chair as a means of freedom to move independently.
  9. It’s ok for children to notice and ask questions. Adults discouraging a child from talking can be more confronting.
  10. If talking for an extended time, and the person isn’t able to raise their chair to eye level, find a seat so as to be at eye level with them.
  11. I hate the idea of blocking someone else’s view due to the size of the chair.  From my experience, people in chairs are more than ok with being asked to move if they are in the way.
  12. If you want a person in a chair to move forwards, backwards, or out of the way, just ask as you would an able-bodied person.
  13. Don’t think you can outrun me, I can go 10km/h for 70km 🙂

Thanks so much for reading this. Means a lot.


To the disease I despise


Let’s get one thing straight. I am not thankful for Motor Neurone Disease.

It’s a hideous disease. No, I’m not thankful for it.  In fact, I despise it.

People with Motor Neurone Disease (MND) progressively lose the use of their limbs and ability to speak, swallow and breathe, whilst their mind and senses remain intact (some say it resembles being buried alive). The cause is unknown. There is no cure.*

I meet and watch as strong healthy men, in a matter of months, can no longer move their legs, their arms, their tongue to speak or their jaw to eat. I see as they become prisoners in their body, all the while fully aware of what is happening to them.

I’ve buried too many people to this disease. I’ve sat with too many grieving families losing their loved ones far too young. Just last month, I met a child with MND. It makes me angry.

Personally, there have certainly been moments living with this disease, for four years now, when I grieve what I can no longer do, but I try to keep them to moments and short ones at that, while focusing in on what I do have and can do.

I have become more aware of the small things I can be thankful for.

I’m not thankful for my MND but I try to be thankful in the midst of it. Maybe you have heard me say that before, but you need to understand that it’s not a passive, absent thankfulness.  It’s very active.  It’s very intentional.

I wonder in this fast-paced and full life, if our thankfulness, as good as it is, doesn’t turn into something more?

I wonder if we sat with our thankfulness for just a few more moments, if it would cause us to become not only thankful, but also thoughtful, and not just thoughtful, but active?

I have noticed that each time I am thankful for being able to walk, I am drawn to pray for those, who for the first time will be placed in a wheelchair and never be able to walk unassisted again. But what if there was more I could do?

Each time I am thankful that I still get to taste my food, it triggers thoughts of those who will be getting a feeding tube and therefore never taste food again. But what if there was more that could be done?

MND is no respecter of persons; it can strike anyone; and each day in Australia two people die from MND. Average life expectancy is 2.5 years. For every person diagnosed with MND, it is estimated that a further 14 members of their family and their friends will live with the effect of MND forever.*

I, by no means, wish to diminish the power of thankfulness in our lives.

Research shows that daily discussion of gratitude results in higher reported levels of alertness, enthusiasm, determination, attentiveness, energy, and sleep duration and quality.

Grateful people also report lower levels of depression and stress, and although I do not think we should deny or ignore the negative aspects of life, there is a significant importance of gratitude.

When we are unaware of what we have, we are also unaware of what others don’t have. It is the breeding ground for self-focus. Thankfulness and gratitude develop thoughtfulness and compassion for others as we realise what we have.

We may live in a thankless world, but it is important that we increase our compassion for the less fortunate.

I do wish to encourage us all today, that there is more we can do!

You see, I want to use every breath I have, by every means I can to deal a fatal blow to this disease. I want to be an ambassador that there is always hope. Always.

To the disease I despise, your greatest days are behind you and an army of us are coming at you with all we can muster.


So that, one day, whether in our lifetime or not, a doctor, can sit across from a patient, like I did that fateful day, and hear the horrible news that they have Motor Neurone Disease but then be told, “THERE IS SOMETHING WE CAN DO!”

In hope for that day, and in action towards it, I have partnered with Cure for MND and the Big Freeze to help host a huge awareness and fundraising campaign locally in Newcastle. If you are keen to join me, you can follow the links below.

Appreciate your continued support as you help us fight the beast,



For tickets to the Big Freeze Ball (selling fast) visit:

Join me for a night filled with music, laughter, and community spirit as we raise awareness for Motor Neurone Disease and vital funds for Research into a cure. Saturday June 17, will be a great evening in the Starlight Ball Room, at Wests New Lambton.  All Proceeds from the night go directly into funding vital research into a cure through the Cure for MND Foundation.

For more information visit

*Source: Deloitte Access Economics report Economic Analysis of MND in Australia:

Five qualities I can’t live without

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Another day in the office. Some of the great people helping me fight MND.

A while back, one Boxing Day, my son-in-law and I bought remote control helicopters. Well, mine has not been working for a while, and I find out, neither has his. Mine spins and flashes but doesn’t take off the ground. It doesn’t fly, which is what I bought it to do.

My son-in-law suggested recently that we should take parts from his and make at least one that works.

Because they are the same make and brand, this is a possible solution.

It made me think that much of our lives can be spent spinning and flashing, like my broken remote-control helicopter, but not really getting anywhere, not taking off, not flying.

Maybe the answer is getting the missing parts of our lives from others with a similar culture or DNA. Maybe the broken or missing parts we need can be found in others, in partnership and togetherness.

Maybe we were never meant to fly without the assistance and help of others.

When I was diagnosed with Motor Neurone Disease (MND) and given only a short time to live, I knew if I was going to give this my best shot, then I would need to get some people on my team that thought and fought like me, so I could “fly”, if you like.

What will get you through the challenges of life and make you stronger, are people who share the same values and the same perception of your world. They don’t have to be the same as you, but would be willing to bring their unique parts to the table.

I wouldn’t be where I am today without the multidisciplinary team of friends, family and professionals who have become a lifeline.

If you are going to be the best “you” that you can be, to achieve all that you have in your heart to achieve, then believe me, you will need others.

So what exactly do you look for in others? There are five great qualities that come to mind.

First: someone with answers.

A million people will find fault, find the one who finds answers. When I was choosing an Occupational Therapist (OT), I was looking for someone who had vision, foresight, a sense of mission and a positive outlook on life.  I chose someone who could see the challenge but was creative enough to come to me with answers.

Second: someone who is fruitful.

I want my team to show fruitfulness in what they do; they have results from past endeavours. I have a physio who is very new to the field but in the short time she has been a physio she has shown great dedication and already has great references.

There is a passage in the Bible when Jesus walked up to a fruit tree and cursed it because it didn’t have fruit.  The funny thing was, it wasn’t the time of year for fruit. So why was Jesus so hard on the tree? Perhaps because He knew this tree would not bear fruit.

Third: someone willing to be in alignment.

To get people moving in the same direction and in the same way may mean firstly identifying misalignments and then creating realignment.  When the tires on your car are aligned regularly, they last longer and give a safer and more comfortable ride.

When it comes to the people on my team to fight MND, I have to first address the misalignment that “I’m just going to surrender and wave the white flag.”  NO WHITE FLAGS on my team thank you very much.

We will acknowledge the reality but we will not give into it as having the final say.  When it comes to new assistive technology, it’s about bringing me more freedom, not less. I’m not afraid to adopt early suggestions from OTs, but the reason must be for longevity and freedom to live. The motivation for incorporating this technology is not because of a disability but because it will give me greater ability.  It’s only a small alignment in thinking. And it makes a big difference to me.

Fourth: someone who makes me feel good.

I’m not afraid to say that I want people in my life who make me feel good.  They are good for my mind and emotions.  When I have an appointment with my neurologist, naturopath, counsellor or doctor, I want to like them and their attitude.

God calls us to a life of loving those who don’t show that same love back, but that doesn’t mean we have to rely on them to help us fly, so to speak.

In hard times, you will need people you like. You may not want to necessarily holiday with them but you can honestly say that they are a nice person.

If you are thinking, “well I don’t know any nice people,” then maybe you need to start being nice. Nice attracts nice.

Fifth: someone of faith and courage

I want people on my team who can see beyond today’s limitations, someone who is not satisfied with the status quo, someone who finds better ways of doing things.

I want my team to be courageous enough to tell me when it’s not safe for me to drive, but at the same time, keep me driving for as long as I can.

People who encourage are people who put courage in.  It’s not just by their words, but by a sense of their being.  Sometimes, it is just knowing that they are with you. The net is made stronger and bigger by them being there.

There you have it:  five things I look for in people I do life with.  Who knows, it may just be part of the puzzle that keeps me going to fight MND.


It’s all good


Single, Married, Sick, Healthy, Rich, Poor? Discover how to live with happiness.

Last week I was telling my psychologist how frustrating the changes in my body are. The simple things, like I have to wait for one of my sons to come over to carry salt to the swimming pool.

She said, “change will happen, sometimes we must learn to live with change being the new normal”.

What is the secret to a happy and content life?  I think it is learning to be content in whatever situation you find yourself in: single, married, sick, healthy, rich, or poor.  It’s a contentment that comes from within.

Philippians 4:12 says “I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation.”

Contentment is not conning yourself, psyching yourself up, or pretending you like what you really don’t like. That isn’t contentment — that’s fake.

Contentment is taking stock of your attitude and deciding that with Christ’s presence in you, you can cope! You can handle it! You are sufficient for the problem!

Contentment is not apathy, laziness, or complacency.  If you can change a situation, you don’t need to be content and lay in it — maybe you need to get up and do something about it.

Where you really need to master the art of a learned contentment is in the situations that you can’t control: those things that are beyond you.

I had a friend Bruce who was battling cancer and every single time I caught up with him, on his best days and on his worst, the contentment he felt was tangible.  Each time I asked him “how are you in here mate?” pointing to my head, or “how are you in here mate?” pointing to my heart, he would answer “it’s all good!”

My friend Bruce didn’t say that as a throw away line, he kept his peace in the midst of the storm.   His faith was unwavering and anchored his soul.

So how do you do that?  I have learned a couple of ways:

One is to avoid comparison.

There will always be people that make more money than you, who have greater opportunities than you have, or who have fewer problems. So what? That does not need to have any bearing on your own personal contentment.

Howard Hughes, a business magnate and Hollywood socialite, was once asked, “How much money does it take to make a man happy?” He said, “Just a little more.”

In stark contrast, the Apostle Paul says in 2 Corinthians 4:18, “We don’t look around at what we see right now, the troubles all around us. But we look forward to the joys in heaven.”

You don’t need to have what others have, be liked by everyone or have more than what you have now to be content.

I can’t afford to spend time comparing myself to other people or in the futile pursuit of more.   I keep my eyes on a far greater hope and purpose.

Another is to adjust to change.

Life is full of ups and downs — emotionally, physically, mentally, and financially. One thing is certain in life: change.

Change is going to happen whether you like it or not and we must be flexible because circumstances usually aren’t.

How well do you handle change?  Do you get frightened? Moody? Angry? Uptight?

Your happiness in life will be largely dependant upon your ability to adapt, adjust, and be flexible.

What is the secret of a content and happy life? Learn to relax, trust God, avoid comparing yourself and adjust to change.


(Originally published as The Secret to Happiness)



Will I Regret This?


Regret. Just the word can make us feel squeamish.

I don’t want to have regrets, but I do.

I wish I didn’t have any, but the reason regrets are regrets is because there is nothing we can do to change them.

Or is there?

What if we could act retrospectively, after the regrettable, to diminish regret’s power and change our future for the better?  And what if we could take away regret’s potential before the regrettable even happens?

Finish this sentence, “I regret ____________________________.”

I know it’s uncomfortable. Maybe some have stopped reading.

Since you kept reading, I want to show you how regret doesn’t need to stay negative.

Perhaps it’s since being diagnosed with a terminal illness that I have become more aware of my regrets.  Everyone tells you, “don’t have any regrets” – the pressure is keen to be able to say you have none.  It makes us sound more courageous and confident, secure in every decision we have ever made.

But is it attainable?

I am beginning to realise that if I never had a regret: I never would have changed, I never would have grown, and I never would have admitted fault.

In fact, I think there are only two ways to live without regrets, and they are: 1) ignorant to our regrets, or 2) aware of our regrets.  One is pride, the other, humility.

Pride will not allow you to admit failure. Whereas, regret is a powerful change agent.

Regret can redirect our lives in the right direction.

If you live without having any regrets, then you have missed the opportunity to courageously learn and change for the better.

I remember when I was a young boy, I stole a lead pencil from the local Woolworths store.  I needed a 2HB pencil and for some reason, I thought the only way to have it was to steal it.  When I went home that night with my prize, I could hardly sleep.  I was so ashamed that I had stolen the pencil.

I regretted it.

Regret for what I had done made me sneak the pencil back into the store the next morning.  Even now, I can clearly see myself returning the pencil to its shelf.

I knew I wasn’t a thief by nature, but I had stolen.

My regret caused me to make a change.

Shame would have kept calling me a thief.  But acknowledging regret caused me to respond and that decision may have even changed the direction of my life.

Remember, shame will try to define you, but acknowledging your mistakes can REdefine you.

Regret motivates us towards change.  And, importantly, it doesn’t always have to be our personal regret to motivate change in us.

I have learned so much from other people who have admitted their regrets.

I remember talking to a man with Motor Neurone Disease (MND) who had lost the ability to eat and swallow.  He told me about how he had refused to have a PEG put in his stomach (a PEG is a tube passed into a persons stomach to provide a means of feeding when oral intake is not adequate).  Later, he came to a place when he wanted to get one but it was too late.  He had missed his window of opportunity and the anaesthetist would no longer allow the operation.  He told me he regretted not getting it when he was well enough.  Maybe it could have helped him lived longer.  I have learned from his regret and if the time ever comes for me to get a PEG, I will.

His regret will change my tomorrow.

Another friend was sharing at a leadership conference about how he regretted the way he treated staff as a young boss and how he used that regret to change his style of leadership and therefore the type of leader he wanted to became.  His vulnerability made me a better leader.

It teaches me that being vulnerable about our regrets can bring change in others so they don’t have the same regret.

Whose tomorrow could you change by your regret?

I believe there is no regret that can’t be turned into a life changing experience.

There is no regret, too small or too large, that can’t be turned around.

Speaking of the small, I remember getting a credit card interest charge of over $100.  I regretted missing the payment due date and not paying it in full.  Since then, I have never paid interest on my credit card. I pay on time and don’t allow the card to go above what I can afford to pay off at the end of the month.  Regret changed the way I did my banking and made me get knowledge about how the interest is calculated on credit cards.

I can say, I have no regret about being charged that interest as it has saved me being charged again.

If you learn from your regrets, then they are truly no longer regrets.  You take away their power.

What regrets can you learn from, and in doing so disempower, today?  

Let me encourage you that the more you learn from your regrets, the less regrets you’ll have.

So here’s to no regrets,


Permission to be your best


I had it all wrong.

I never understood what it meant to be my best. Not just that, I couldn’t see courage, even when it was staring back at me.

This is a candid tale of sorts about how I found the roadmap to my best self, on the rocky pathway of courage.

Let me begin by saying that I look at people who do brave things, like firemen, emergency services, or our armed forces and I think, “that’s courage!” We don’t call these people courageous because of the outcome of their attempts. We call them courageous because they were willing to give of their best.  They put themselves on the line to save the lives of others.

Just the other week, we saw two young boys try to stop a man hell-bent on hurting innocent people. We called those boys courageous, not because they succeeded in stopping the man from killing four people, but because they did their best. They may have felt disappointment and failure, but we saw courage.

Funnily enough, courage is something we tend to see in others but rarely do we see it in ourselves.

We can dismiss it as unattainable because we may go through our whole life and we are never required to act courageously in such a public way.

This is where I had it all wrong. Courage is not only attainable for me and you, it’s also necessary to be the best we can be.

Let me explain what I mean. Because of the effect of Motor Neurone Disease (MND) / ALS on my body, I experience weakening of my muscles and muscle wastage, effecting my ability to speak, walk and eat as well as I once did. I am progressing slowly which I am very thankful for, but I still experience these effects.

This made me think that I was not courageous because I was not being the best version of myself that I had been. I was not as strong, or fit, or capable. I was not being enough or doing enough.

I thought I was only being courageous if I showed up when people wanted me to and I was positive all the time and completely doubt free.  I was courageous if I could perform how I thought a courageous person would perform.

And yet, here lays the dilemma:

When I see you doing the best you can, I see courage. But when I looked at myself, I couldn’t see it.

The raw truth is this:

I saw what you call courage in me as weakness.

I turn up with my failing body and you see courage, when all I see is weakness.

I speak of my fears and hopes and you see courage, where I feel humiliation.

I struggle with my faith and you see courage, but I am disappointed.

Then I began to realise that that is exactly what courage is.

When you are weak, when you are disappointed, when you are knocked down, but still, you turn up, you be your best self, you don’t allow those moments to destroy your ability to wrestle with your doubt, your pain, your vulnerability, your humiliation and unbelief – THAT IS COURAGE!

Friend, if you never have times of doubt, vulnerability, pain or weakness then you will never require courage to turn up anyway.

This doesn’t mean we won’t be a better version of ourselves tomorrow, but the beginning of being a better you, is accepting that who you are today is enough.

You cannot rise to a better you if you are always starting from a place of self hate and insecurity.

That means, I need to give myself the grace, compassion and kindness to accept that I’m doing my best today.  Will I fail, fall and disappoint? Yes!  But I was giving my best and so I get up and move forward, and have another go.

Recently, I was visiting with a young mum who has MND / ALS.  She has just received her wheelchair as her legs are failing her.  She told me about how she had caught a public bus in her wheelchair with kids in tow for the first time.  Let me say that again: a public bus, in a wheelchair, with kids in tow.

Look no further. This is courage. In her weakness, she is turning up and doing life the best she can.

So, what is courage?

You are courage, and I am courage.

Courage is knowing that life can deliver pain and even tremendous disappointment, and then turn up anyway.

Courage is moving forward through our weakness when we want to stay put or turn back the other way.

Courage is facing the reality of our limitations as part of the process of growth and life.

Courage is living a purposeful life, knowing that there is every possibility you may win or you may fail and fall.

Courage is knowing that you can accept either outcome when you have BEEN your best and will continue BECOMING your best.

There is a saying: “God is not finished with me yet.”  Well, it’s true, God is one hundred per cent not finished with you yet.

Take a deep breathe, and know you have permission to be your best.

And your best is enough.

With courage,


Why you need more hope


There is no doubt that we all need hope to face the future. As we enter a new year, how can we live with hope for a better 2017, especially when we’ve been knocked down and need the strength to get back up again.

I want to share with you how I live with real hope while fighting this terminal illness called MND/ALS. It’s a question I am asked often. It’s how I explain the dynamic of my body getting weaker, but my spirit gaining strength.

One thing I know is hope is similar to love. We can sing about it and write about it, but to describe its essence is difficult at times.  We cannot put it in a jar to measure it or look at it.  The best we can do is reveal its impact on our external circumstances and expose its effect as it changes us on the inside.

Last year, I was able to speak 31 times, officiate two funerals, and raise thousands of dollars for critical research funds and to support those who suffer. I couldn’t do that without hope.

We can put our hope in so many areas: medicine, science, knowledge, people, time and the supernatural. Let me warn you sometimes our hope can be misplaced as well, like when we hope in things or people that are not tested or not trustworthy.  For example, if you are living in an abusive relationship, hoping that one day the person will change and yet time and time again they come back abusive and violent, then your hope is misplaced and even dangerous.   False hope can be fatal hope.

Hoping a bank will give you money to buy a home when you have zero deposit and no work is false hope. But getting up and going to yet another job interview is a hope that can be the first step towards having that home.

Hope does not discount reality, but faces it with courage to bring about change. I believe hope is powerful and necessary to live a full life to the best of our ability and even more than our ability. Hope picks us up and carries us through the most difficult of days.

Hope never surrenders to circumstances, but rises above them.  This can be very painful because, at times, it pushes us to our limits and into some uncomfortable places.  Even if that means leaning into the pain of what is and finding a way through. Hope, more often that not, does not carry us away from our pain, but through it.

Hope is having a positive expectation for a better future while at the same time having a real contentment with today. Hope forgets what was, acknowledges what is, all the while embracing what is next. It’s believing that things will get better, and a peace while you wait.

This is a big one because having contentment may look like surrender, but it’s far from giving up. It is a result of hope that is both present and future focused.

I would suggest if your hope does not produce a true sense of peace and comfort, then it is probably misplaced.

Hope also demands a response.  At times, it is an internal response that produces a quietness of spirit as we meditate on hope’s presence in our lives. For example, when my hope is of a spiritual nature, my response is trust.  It’s knowing that God has me, He has got this.

At other times, it’s an external response that brings about an action that moves us forward.

Therefore, when my hope is in science, then the demand is that I do something.  I take the medicine and actively look for whatever may help.  For me, it means taking approximately 40 supplements a day, importing drugs from France, subjecting my body to scientist’s research.

I also have hope in assistive technology that can help me live with as much independence as possible. I know these things may not cure me, but I’m hoping they help and slow down what can be a very fast moving disease.

When I was diagnosed with Motor Neurone Disease, I was told there was no cure, but hope says there is a cure, we just haven’t discovered it yet.  Hope says, I will search the world and find something that may help. It’s an attitude of never giving up because who knows what opportunity may present itself tomorrow. It means doing all you can.

Did you know that Japan has already released a fully tested advanced drug to slow down the progression of MND/ALS.  It’s too expensive for most of us, but it is available.

My point is, hope keeps on looking, knocking and seeking.

Hope says, I will raise awareness and funds to help scientists discover new ways. This may mean that our hope is not just about ourselves, but about those who will come after us.

Our hope is wrapped up in a sense of legacy, making the world a better place for those who one day face what we face. 

What if the world was a place, where, when someone is told they have MND/ALS, the very next thing they’re told is that we have a cure for you.

Hope is a sacrifice at times.  It can look like people laying down their own agendas, comfort and freedoms for the benefit of others. Soldiers do it all the time. Or, think of all those who have died of cancer. In a very real way, their death has driven us to find a treatment and today, other people live because they died.

Hope never gives up. I have learned that focusing my hope in different areas does not mean a weakening of hope. I want to be spiritually, physically, emotionally and mindfully strong in this battle.  Hope, therefore, can be multi-focused without becoming diluted.

It’s like looking through a kaleidoscope, it is made up of individual colours coming together and producing a beautiful pattern with balance and poise.

I guess it’s similar to loving your first child and then when the second comes, you wonder how you can love two as much as you have loved the one.  You soon find that love is not divided up, it multiplies.  It’s the same with hope. Hope is not divided up, it multiplies.

I mentioned that hope can have a supernatural focus.  If you have every prayed, you have hoped in the supernatural. For me, that’s a hope that transcends this world and its limitations. I pray daily for the help of Jesus, literally, as simple as three words: “Jesus, help me.”

I choose Jesus to be the focus for my hope.  He is, if you like, the anchor of my hope.  When all other hope falls short or disappoints due to its limitations, I have a hope in Jesus to rise above all other hope.

Our world is fallible and imperfect. Drugs don’t always work, people don’t always turn up, weakness is real. But, my hope in Jesus is grounded on the belief that the same power that raised Him from death, is available to me. That God, by His grace can move at anytime and heal us of our sickness. Hope that means death has lost its power over me, my hope rests is heaven and eternity.

I will tell anyone who will listen about the hope Jesus brings, whether it be my psychologist, my neighbours and friends. I explain that the more I have relationship with Jesus, the more hope I have in my heart.  That my hope ultimately is that I would become more like Him and even one day be with Him.

Yes, put your hope in medicine and people but also find a hope that transcends all of these.  It’s a personal hope, it’s an intimate hope, it’s a hope that has real substance produced by faith, it’s a hope that prays “Jesus, help me.”  Why not give it a try?



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